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The Inventors of the Cocoaine--knowing that when the loss of hair occurs, it is generally from that part of the head where the greatest heat is necessarily generated, and that animal fats, as Bear's grease, lard, &c., &c., by their nature induce heat rather than alleviate it--turned their attention and pharmaceutical science toward Vegetable Oils, as the basis of a medicament, to promote the growth, and preserve the beauty of the hair. The Oleum Cocos, or
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presented itself most strongly as possessing many properties peculiarly adapted for the purpose; but its odor was objectionable, and its density (except when exposed to heat) seemed for a long time to defy all efforts to render it available, in the cooler climates, for popular use. By a scientific selection of other ingredients, those which will chemically combine with the oil have been discovered, and they together have produced a topical compound, which is unqualifiedly pronounced to be the best that has yet appeared.

In the form here presented, this Oil is permanently deodorized, and held in a combination which peculiarly adapts it for the Toilet; it is unrivalled in delicacy and agreeableness,--cooling in its nature,--and possesses such a penetrating affinity for the secretions of the skin, that it is rapidly absorbed.

Its greatest efficacy is best secured by a perfect cleansing, before its application, of the hair and scalp, (for which purpose the Kalliston is recommended, because its ingredients are coöperative with those in the Cocoaine,) under which circumstances this Oil allays irritation, removes all tendency to dandruff, and invigorates the action of the capillaries in the highest degree. Its effect upon the glossiness and richness of appearance of the hair is such as cannot be surpassed, and it is now offered to the public, in the firm belief that it only requires to be known to supersede all other preparations. We are confident that no one who may make a trial of its efficacy, will be willing to return to the use of any other preparation.

The proprietors would also call attention to the fact that it is the cheapest Hair Dressing yet offered to the public; and they refer to the accompanying recommendatory remarks, some of which are selected from the writings of men of science, and others from many communications which they have already received from reliable sources. Price Fifty Cents for half-pint Bottle.

FOR SALE BY DRUGGISTS GENERALLY.

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Extracts from authentic writings upon the virtues, origin, &c., of Cocoa-Nut Oil; and from Papers of the day, Letters, &c.

The Cocoa Palm is a native of the South-east of Asia, but is found in almost all tropical countries.

"In the countries of its growth, the uses to which the Cocoa nut Tree is applicable, are almost innumerable. Among the most important of these is the manufacture of the Fragrant Oil, employed by the inhabitants of all tropical countries, in a great variety of pharmaceutical preparations. The sweet fixed oil of the Cocoa-nut is deposited in very great quantity, in the formation of albumen, that takes place upon the inside of the shell, after the nut is gathered, and is expressed from the kernel by pressure merely, and without the mixture of any foreign or adventitious substance. In the warmest countries it is only necessary to cut the pulp into thin slices and expose it in shallow wooden vats to the direct action of the sun. With a slight lowering of the temperature, it solidifies into a white and fragrant mass, easily dissolving again upon application of external heat.

The use of this oil as a cosmetic has been universal among all the people of India, for centuries. No other preparation of art could give that elegant suppleness of limb, that glowing smoothness of skin, and luxuriance and abundance of hair, which have so often been the admiration of travellers in those remote and interesting regions. The constant use of it, in fact, is enjoined as a part of their religion, in many of the islands of the Eastern Archipelago, and the abundance in which it is to be found, seems to be one of those wise provisions of nature, intended to point out its salutary and desirable properties, for the use of man."--Selected.

[Extract from a letter, from a gentleman of this City widely known in a high official position.]

Boston, July 23d, 1857.

Messrs. Joseph Burnett & Co.

Gents:--I have until now been unable to find a Hair Oil which is well adapted to my own personal use. Indeed, for some years I have discontinued the use of such preparations, because of the failure of those I had tried. My hair is very fine in texture, and had a tendency to become dry, then to contract itself into a sort of angular spiral, and finally to fall off, especially from the top of the head.

Your Cocoaine came recently under my observation, and from the knowledged I had of the Cocoa-nut Oil, as employed by the natives of the countries where it grows, and of its peculiar purity as an Oil, I was led to resort to it for one more trial. I have not yet used it long enough to prove that it will do all you represent or claim for it, but its first effects are such as to lead me to place much confidence in it. Its use is peculiarly agreeable; it is very little liable to soil linen or cotton, with which it necessarily at night comes in contact; and it imparts thereto no unpleasant odor; it has already straightened out and softened the hair that was contracted, and restored a glossy and smooth appearance which my hair had lost.

Yours Respectfully.

Marsden, speaking of the people of Sumatra, says:--"Their hair is strong and of a shining black, the improvement of both which qualities it probably owes in a great measure to the constant use of Cocoa-nut Oil."--Marsden, p. 49.

"It is a known fact that vegetable fats are much less apt to become rancid than animal fats, and in consequence of that fact the Oleum Cocos, or Cocoa-nut Oil, was, several years ago, in Munich, proposed as a substitute for lard. Since that time it has been used in many preparations, and found to answer various purposes. By the animal heat of the skin it perfectly liquifies, and is then most readily absorbed by the human skin. Lard, on the contrary, disappears more slowly, and is therefore to a large extent taken up by the bedding and garments, to which, even with the most scrupulous cleanliness, it soon imparts a rancid smell."--Am. Journal of Pharmacy for July, 1857.

Boston, July 19th, 1857.

Messrs. J. Burnett & Co.:--I cannot refuse to state the salutary effect in my own aggravated case, of your excellent Hair Oil--(Cocoaine).

For many months my hair had been falling off, until I was fearful of losing it entirely. The skin upon my head became gradually more and more inflamed, so that I could not touch it without pain. This irritated condition I attributed to the use of various advertised hair washes, which I have since been told contained camphene spirit.

By the advice of my physician, to whom you had shown your process of purifying the Cocoa-nut Oil, I commenced its use the last week in June. The first application allayed the itching and irritation; in three or four days the redness and tenderness disappeared; the hair ceased to fall, and I have now a thick growth of new hair. I trust that others similarly afflicted will be induced to try the same remedy.

Yours, very truly,..........Susan R. Pope.

Burnett's Cocoaine. This is the name of a new and elegant preparation for dressing the hair, just introduced into the market by Messrs. Joseph Burnett & Co. It combines all the properties which have long been desired in an article of the kind, and is the result of a careful research, and reiterated experiment. It contains a very large proportion of the famous Cocoa-nut Oil, the use of which is so universal among the inhabitants of the Eastern Archipelago. The luxuriance and abundance of hair which adorn the natives of those remote regions, are attested by all travellers, and are mainly to be attributed to the use of this Oil. The aim of Messrs. Burnett & Co. has been to free it from the peculiar odor which it has in this condition, and to unite with it some approved tonics which stimulate the hair to a healthy and vigorous growth. It will be found on trial to be the blandest, cleanest, and most desirable preparation ever offered to the public.--Boston Transcript.

A Reliable Hair Preparation. In another column our readers are referred to Joseph Burnett & Co.'s advertisement of Cocoaine, for preserving and beautifying the hair. It is claimed for this preparation that it contains, in a liquid form, a large proportion of deodorized Cocoa-nut Oil, which possesses peculiar properties that suit the various conditions of the human hair. From the well-known reputation of Joseph Burnett & Co., as chemists and apothecaries, we welcome any new toilet preparation from their hands, and unhesitatingly recommend them to the public in our columns.--Boston Ledger.

• A Summary of the excellencies of Burnett's Cocoaine, in contradistinction to those of all other preparations.
• It is a cooling Vegetable Oil...........(Animal Oils are heating.)
• It has great penetrating affinity for the human skin...........(Animal Oils, as bear's grease, have little or none.)
• Its rapid absorption leaves little residue on the surface...........(Animal Oils do not possess this peculiarity, in any great degree.)
• It does not quickly become rancid...........(Animal Oils do.)
• It imparts glossiness to the hair by its penetrating power, rather than by mere outward lustre...........(The contrary is true with regard to Animal Oils.)

[???]The extreme susceptibility of Cocoa-nut Oil, renders the Cocoaine liable to congeal when exposed to any considerable degree of cold but not enough to occasion inconvenience in use, or to impair its effect. A slight degree of warmth will restore the original brilliancy.

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DINNER
GIVEN BY THE
CITY OF NEW ORLEANS,
TO THE
CONGRESSIONAL DELEGATION,
AT THE
ST. LOUIS HOTEL,
Friday, Dec. 28, 1866.

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DINNER
• Soup:
  • Green Turtle,
  • Chicken and Oyster Gombo,
  • Consommé
  • Julienne,
• Fish:
  • Sheepshead à la Normande,
  • Broiled Snapper. à la Maitre d'Hotel,
  • Boiled Red Fish, Hollandaise sauce,
  • Filets of Trout à l'Orly.
• Cold Dishes:
  • Galantine de Dindon en Bellevue,
  • Jambon de Westphalie à la glacé,
  • Mayonnaise d'Homard.
  • Langue de Boeuf aux Cressons.
• Réléves:
  • Roasted Turkey with Truffles,
  • Saddle of Mutton, English style,
  • Tenderloin of Beef with Mushrooms,
  • Roast Venison, sauce Poivrade.
• Entrées:
  • Filet de Volaille piqué, à la Toulouse,
  • Côtelettes d'Agneau, à la Jardinière,
  • Rissole de Volaille à la Reine,
  • Téte de Veau en Tortue,
  • Salmi de Bécassines aux Truffles,
  • Ailerons de Dindons à la Chevalier,
  • Fricandeau de Veau aux Epinards,
  • Vol-au-Vent, à la Financière.
• Second Course:
  • Canvas-back Ducks,
  • Mallard Ducks,
  • Pintail Ducks,
  • Wild Geese,
  • Snipe,
  • Broiled Teal Ducks.
• Vegetables:
  • Asparagus,
  • Cauliflower,
  • Green Peas,
  • Celery,
  • Mashed Turnips,
  • Potatoes boiled and mashed,
  • Baked Macaroni,
  • Stewed Tomatoes.
• Third Course:
  • ORNAMENTAL PIECES.
• Pastry:
  • Plum Pudding, Brandy sauce,
  • Rum Jelly,
  • Rhubarb Tarts,
  • Jelly Puffs,
  • Cocoanut Macaroons,
  • Lemon Meringues,
  • Cream Cakes,
  • Almond Kisses,
  • Blanc Mange,
  • Vanilla Ice Cream.
• Dessert:
  • Oranges,
  • Apples,
  • Grapes,
  • Banannas,
  • Figs,
  • Raisins,
  • Prunes,
  • Almonds,
  • Pecans,
• • FRENCH COFFEE.

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Recollections of a Rebel Reefer.
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Cat logomini case 21: A edical émoigne its own case at the dawn of his retirement is with great interest that have read your article on the fighters have appeared in The Journal of Practitioner ebruary 2000 and for two reasons.

Before taking the "MICA", 'had undertaken extensive research to understand the phenomenon of go without ever finding ESPONSES satisfaisantes.Etant myself a "great beyond," and experiencing this state for many years, I sought an explanation my personal problem.

To move forward, perhaps, in your research I will eeting to your questionnaire survey: age 64 years - number of Aillant per day: depending on the day and especially by my statements soul.

This number can be done by a 20 to go by Erie crisis, very close .- schedules to fatigue, after reading at bedtime, but then they are isolated Aillant.

However, the bursts of Aillant 'come when I feel oppressed, anxious, tense, for cons, they announce and confirm this, and I feel like waiting and saving my anxieties, my oppression as a valve.

Because after this Erie go, I feel relieved, tired and decompression. - No stretch .- Factors associated triggerings: cause or consequence of an anxiety manifested by a pressure at gastric plexus or a tight chest.

This has earned balances cardiac fibro stomach, all normal.

To reach the conclusion, we 'talked' panic ....

This is still felt in the ven-stereotypical way, without me explain each time. case 22: A 69 year old woman is driving to the consultation by her husband of n early 2000.

She complains about not being able to walk, being unstable, being afraid to walk.

Her husband speaks disorders emory.

NMI test 15/30.

Examination found a ésorientation temporo-spatial anterograde amnesia, acalculia, loss of urine unintentional indifference.

Neurological examination was normal and the scanner asked.

Treatment antidepressant Paroxetine (serotonin reuptake inhibitor) and buspirone is an improvement with gradual disappearance of phobias in three months.

Examination at that time asking if she yawns, shall immediately ELIVER noting that the husband is constantly telling him to refrain from going.

It bursts from June to October Aillant following, épétées up to 5 to 10 times a day, without any satisfaction or ene.

Introduction to complement a plug Evening of 1 mg pimozide is reducing frequency to go to a dozen a day without burst.

Psychic state is transformed: resumed walking, autonomy, goes shopping, has more emotion and memory is capabale calculate and anaging his wallet. case 23: a student émoigne PHYSICIAN. 27 ebruary 2001.

Thank you very much for having informed on what already exists on your site!

I have read with great interest.

'I made several research sites on the go but I found before any other site as comprehensive.

I m very surprised a certain coincides (which in itself may prove the relevance of some of your remarks).

I myself am a student PHYSICIAN Syndrome Gilles De La Tourette.

Not suffering (consciously anyway) Aillant excessive, 'I chose to make a site about cats now go.

Then I got interested a little closer to go, making myself the relationship between the involuntariness but flexible one go and a tic.

And I use amongst other example of someone who believes Aillant when acting as his own will ask me to explain what I feel when a tick and how is possible to do something unintentionally.

The Aillant expresses very well the involuntary nature of tic and flexible.

Another aspect that also reflects well is the loss of contact with the outside.

In fact, when Complex tics and less abrupt lasting several seconds, it's happen to be reminded that when the éalité 'perceive the reaction of one who is in front, like elsewhere who has no hands to his mouth, forgetting that he was watched.

To compare the tics, I am also using other examples.

Sneezing writes better sensation that may precede the tic and the difficulty to remember.

The hocquet writes well of involuntariness, and sudden bursts.

I also present a daily hocquet Enanta has been for some ven Periodicals.

This was preceded by one year the sudden onset of my tics.

Because just like go and tics, the hocquet decreases with neuroleptics.

I have never found in the literature edical relationship between tics, the hocquet and go. case 24: Mona 23 November 1998 asked the U S site HealthCentral.

For two years, I am taking "attacks go" for no reason. can this be for a surprise party, during classes at college, I m gay or sad, at the supermarket, being in a conversation with someone.

Nothing has changed in my life, I sleep well, I do not feel tired.

I am embarrassed by these crises épétées.

I can hold them for one or two minutes maximum, and then they must free themselves.

But I rarely go to bed at night or on awakening.

Follows a response of the "Dr Dean" explaining that in monkeys Monckey these situations can make it clear to other members of the troupe that elsewhere is tired and can no longer keep watch vigilant.

It makes the idea that this young woman expresses the other she is tired that denies the person concerned.

But the descritpion is typical of bursts of nearby Aillant tics and satisfaction related to their executions. case 25: Narrated by Barbizet: a 29-year partial seizures with a chronology and a walk always the same: violent éphalée occipital crisis go and hiccups, numbness of the left arm and mouth.

End of crisis by involuntary urination.

Autopsy diagnosis: left temporal astrocytoma and extending to the corpus striatum and Third venticule. case 26: observation of Dr Williams (Neurology 55, November 2000, p1592) a woman of 64 years, hypertension, diabetes PID, entered the hospital for serious éphalées occipital evolving for 48 hours, dysathrie, dysphonia.

For 6 months she complained of bursts is moving more and more frequent crises every night from 20 to 30 successive, uncontrollable.

Each burst is followed by painful cramps towards the pharynx and nuque.Tous were investigated biology and scan were normal.

EMG Evel amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, explaining disorders églutition and phonation. 3 months following the bursts' accentuate, occurring 7 to 10 times from 20 to 30; the follow parallel églutition becomes increasingly difficult.

The prescription of thioridazine caused the disappearance of the bursts for 2 months.

Judgement of the neuroleptic éapparition causes of that toothless to recovery.

The patient died of a false route.

This picture of pseudobulbar palsy in amyotrophic lateral sclerosis shows a probable release control Aillant by loss of inhibitory cortical and seems paradoxical, since the reach of the motor neuron causes a paralysis of églutition (IX, XI) but not masticatory muscles ( V VII). case 27: Carlo Colosimo, MD, Francesca.

Pontieri, MD, Rome, Italy (january Neurology 1999, 52 P428) Drs.

Goren and Friedman are yawning in Parkinson disease (PD).

The authors state not Been That yawning down Associated with Treated or untreated PD And That It Is Most Likely a dopamine-mediated Phenomenon.

We wish to point out idiopathic PD That Is Not The First parkinsonian syndrome Reported to Be Associated with yawning.

Yawning WAS Described by Dr von Economo Not Only In The acute encephalitic "sleepy" stage of encephalitis Lethargica (EL) Along With sleepiness, goal aussi en postencephalitic parkinsonian (PEP) Patients Without Any Accompanying sleep disturbance or drowsiness.

In the latter "Case, The yawning WAS Often rythmic and repetitive, and WAS Viewed as a form of automatism or compulsive tic.

We Recently published a video collection of early cinematography boxes of PEP seen at The Mayo Clinic in 1920 With One In The Box Showing a woman with paroxysmal yawning.

Like idiopathic PD, PEP IS Associated with neuronal loss MOST That Is In The separate substantia nigra and less so In The basal ganglia.

Given neuropathologic The Involvement Of The nigrostriatal system in PEP, The Parkinsonism WAS Likely due to dopaminergic dysfunction.

We Believe thats the compulsive yawning in PEP Could Possibly Be aussi dopamine mediated, have this symptom or sign Often remitted in boxes of The Few That Spontaneously Improved PEP. case 28: complete adherence Dr Quoirin, bursts of Aillant only symptom a stroke érébral. case 29: Dr Jacome earns éphalées violent attacks by, inaugurated (will not migraine) by went (including a pituitary adenoma) full text in English case 30: Dr Jacome reported three cases of migraine attacks accompanied Aillant full text in English and new cases (2004) case 31: Dr Beale wrote in iatrogenic Aillant antidépesseurs érotoninergiques inétgral text in English Case 32: Dr Sandyk wrote a disease accompanied by bursts Steel Richardson Aillant full text in English case 33: Sicard.

A A paraffinic and Laughter syncope and goes during encephalitis epidemic Newsletters and memories of the League of edical OSPITAL Paris. 1921, 45, P232 case 34: Delmas Marsallet The sign of moving in the frontal brain lesion.

Oto-neuro-ophthalmology 1937, 15, P183 35 cases (witness 28/10/2001) got a problem Aillant that only occur at night when I sleep ...

This is my companion, who suffers the most because frankly I do 'to not realize.

He says I can not ork for 1h30 stop, and wings will come closer every 15 seconds and very deep and "noisy".

And that throughout the night, crises are spaced about 30 minutes he said.

So you can imagine how it must be Enanta for him!

Is almost as if I was snoring really.

During wakefulness I do not go (or as everyone else), and in your site I 've read anything about Aillant night and unconscious.

What is it?

What can they be U S ?

I said that this is not every night, but quite often when ven, and it does not correspond to a particular ERIOD fatigue or 'depressive state.

Plus I sleep well and am well rested at awakening. edical speaking, I m 10 years reached a neurological disorder égénérative mislabelled, following a vaccination against hepatitis (the link has been recognized expertise and I will be indemnified by the State for this as' nurse and were therefore obliged to I vaccinated).

My motor problems are minimal compared to the chronic pain that I Ache life, and I m always a given treatment by the Pain Centre of the hospital in my town.

I take 400mg of Topalgic behind 24 and 400mg of Neurontin at night to sleep without being awakened by évralgies.

'Ve long since this treatment and I never have had these crises Aillant before.

They appeared he was about 3 weeks.

My Aillant could they be U S edicaments these?

Another possibility: para, and more besides, acoustic neuroma as part of a family Enette disease, neurofibromatosis type 2.

This neuroma was placed at C7 D1, inside ven C8 nerve territory.

It is very large and must be removed surgically elastic ...

Can it at this level of compression the supine position induces the phenomenon of go?

In short, 'trying to understand, and I count on you to help them do.

Now you know everything, and hope you will give me ideas for getting rid me of this little problem (small for me but great for my companion). case 36: Van Sweden, Vanderhoven, van Erp MG.Excessive yawning.

Acta Neurol Belg 1994; 94 (3) :150-1 and Pathological yawning (chasm) Associated with periodic leg Movements in sleep: cure by levodopa Martin Leonhardt case 37: Mc Lean et al reported 4 cases excess Aillant as clomipramine and go and sexual arousal in Bertschy of clomipramine case 38: Postert et al go and Multiple Sclerosis case 39: Fletcher: Yawning as a paroxysmal sign of diencephalic seizures case 40: A single postponement of hemiplegic arm stretching related to yawning 0.

Blin see parakinesia brachial sonography (2004) case 41:.

Nathalie ed in 1973 has a mental retardation who do not allow him to learn to read or write.

She consults because she is getting married but is importuned for two years, the date of ths of his era, and by a sleep bruxism bursts of 30 to 40 go, épétées 10 to 12 times per day.

Physical examination is normal neurological and endocrine systems.

A trial of treatment with haloperidol 1 mg * 3 is established.

Wings will disappear but bruxism, reactant is not completely stopped. case 42: Yawning as a complication of electroconvulsive therapy and concurrent neuroleptic Withdrawal 'Mello, Vincent, Lerner (full compliance) Case 43: (personal observation) Mrs Cha ..

Isabelle, 27 years tubal infertility.

It ENEFITS Tours, a support for econds vitro.

Each month for three months, she received an injection of 75U per day of follitropin alpha, hormone maturation of follicles (FSH) to stimulate multiple ovulations to collection of ova.

Three hours after injection, she feels bursts of go, 10 to 20, recurring every 10 to 30 minutes for 6-8 hours.

This iatrogenic effect is not currently reported.

She has no symptoms, pituitary adenoma in particular prolactin.

Case 44: (personal observation) MADEM Bell ...

Maureen, took 78 years, 6 months, 50 mg per day of sertraline (Zoloft), an antidepressant érotoninergique.

It then signals the existence of bursts of go, existing since the second month of treatment, then it feels better, is more asthenic, and has a good sleep.

She inquires about their cause.

Discontinuation of treatment, including the extension is more justified allows the disappearance of bursts in ten days.

Similar cases are reported lready. case 45: "On Call: I m a 62-year-old man in good health.

I take Zocor for my cholesterol as well as" a baby aspirin and several vitamins Every Day.

My problem May SEEM silly, But It's really a nuisance : uncontrollable yawning.

Do You Have Any Idea Why I yawn gold So Much What I Can Do About It? " Harv Mens Health Watch (2002). 6 (9): 8. case 46: Excessive yawning and sleepy attacks case 47: A 46 year old man with WAS obsessivecompulsive disorder history Referred by psychiatrist Because of frequent yawning spells.

It soon Became Apparent That His Movements, superficially resembling yawning, Were different from historical normal yawning.

The yawning Movements Were preceded by a sensation of drowning or suffocation That Could Be Relieved If The only yawning movement Was "just right: I need that good breath".

The yawning WAS Temporarily suppressible, and Did Not Occur If The patient WAS distracted.

The yawning Could Be Substituted for by a sigh, Which aussi abolished The sensation of asphyxia.

Diazepam helped to Reduce the movement.

There Was previous history of tics, family history & the WAS notable for Parkinson's disease.

As a child, The Patient HAD obsessive rituals That Did Not odd HIM.

(Extract Chouinard, Ford Adult onset tic disorders Neurol Neurosurg Psychiatry 2000; 68, 738-743) case 48: A 23-year-old woman Presented with 10 Days of progressive numbness of The Face and arms, diplopia, oscillopsia, and dysphagia.

She Reported Inability to sneeze year gold yawn and meals Were Followed by 5 minutes of Hiccups.

She Had a history of venous thrombosis and a family history of systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE). case 49: "I am 66 years and in recent weeks I am awakened by bailiffs who 'play untiringly without stopping because I Eve Deplus I feel a warmth and pain in the palms and feet, so I m walking, yawning, suffering + in + in my chest.

The first time, 'I wanted to eat sth salty and' have chewed "furiously" crisps. "drank a glass of water, 'I spent hands and feet in water cool, I still went back to bed, massaging my feet while reading and then went back to sleep. 'had thought of a phenomenon allergic ... but since it is reprinted, but I find in my last meal anything suspicious.

I take TRAMADOL 200 2 times a day for about 2 years to relieve many points osteoarthritis.

These moments are very énibles me, my edical do not "see".

What? " Answer: If your wording is correct in these terms and its chronology, it is indeed very strange to be awakened by go.

They arrive in effect, qq moments after awakening to extend mechanically.

Currently, before any excess goes, he must always think of an iatrogenic cause (ie an unexpected side effect of a DTIS).

Tramadol you take to ease your pain is a morphine derivative.

The chronology of your symptoms make me think that your attacks go with a hyperpathia ériphérique (allodynia?), Or paresthesia are the control test of a craving for late doses, linked to your dependences of morphine.

See an article.

Case 50: CPAP and Yawning Basic Facts, yawning ya une indication That You are tired.

So, Why yawning now?

Because Of The constant Awakenings as a result of sleep apnea, We Become tired, fatigued Then, Then more fatigued, Then a zombie .....

It Seems somewhere Along the line Some of us at least go Beyond the normal reaction to Lack of sleep and fail to exhibit The normal reactions.

One Of The Many Things I quit experiencing With sleep apnea Was an occasional yawn.

When We Start NPAP therapy, first weekends we catch up severly delenquent REM sleep (REM Experiencing What Is Called rebound).

We Then Get Back Into Fashion With a normal sleep and normal sleep architecture normal circadian rhythums.

If We Get More Than The normal adults for 8 + hours of sleep per day, weekends begin to pay back o sleep debts.

Düring cette période d Time We start to experience minor little exchange in Our Lives.

Simple things like not falling asleep behind the Wheel.

Seeing the end of movies.

Making It Through the kids (or big kids) school program.

Or yawning.

My co-workers Thought I Was Nuts!

It's not a disbuted outcome, but "yawning"!

I Began yawing one afternoon at work.

SEVERAL times.

And Then I Realized, I Had not yawned in years!

In Fact I Could Remember When I Had last yawned.

A Lot of Years!

And Suddenly It Dawned I am thats the yawning Was a very simple, very subtle sign That I Was Getting Better.

I ran around telling everyone "Hey!, I m yawning!"

Yes, a nut, to I Was Getting Better!

Now, a note of caution.

I Went Through a Period of Time When I yawned, I have to pay back my Continued to sleep debt, I quit yawning again.

After That, if I Pushed Things, and got tired, i would yawn.

If I sleep Maintained proper hygiene, I do not yawn.

So, let yawning Be a sign.

If You Are Still yawning after a year like "Rested," It May Be That You Are not Getting Enough Sleep to pay back your sleep debt.

Perhaps gold That There Is Another problem.

If you yawn occasionally, get some extra sleep for a night or Two.

Be aware of your body, your sleep and it IS important.

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Every First he Aillant the morning and evening.

In the morning, yawning is supposed to help us out of sleep but this ad for a narcoleptic sleep mandatory time comes to stay normal.

I remember (it no longer does now with help of edicaments certainly) a systematic coupling go and erection.

The subject 'was been a taboo with the professionals of sleep, but it exists and is very obvious.

Modafinil acts but it is not obvious on the spot and he was sometimes ù impression that it 'works at all. ow ever, if I stops I found after two days an enormous loss of tone to do something.

I would also say that falling asleep is not necessarily preceded by go. enerally, falling asleep is very fast.

When we fight against sleep, we do not necessarily go.

One would like to make Aillant stimulant effects but only able to get us out of fear or to have a break as the end of a course. " Case 56: go and disorders of attention with or without hypercativité Case 57: Myocardial ischemia as a result of severe benzodiazepine and opioid Withdrawal Case 58: Crises of iatrogenic Aillant amlodipine Case 59: Sometimes When I yawn or stretch my arms out, my neck up sixteen (bread shoot to my head) and my eyes feel like They Are rolling around.

This Last for around five to seven seconds.

When I rub the Side of my neck, it all goes back to normal.

My doctor tells me to Avoid stretching or yawning goal Sometimes I do it Without thinking.

At times I think I Might saint.

(Male, 75).

Response: Probably You Suffer from cervical osteoarthritis.

The neck stretching Düring lordosis (neck pain) May The compressed vertebral Arteries and Malthus's case has brainstem ischemia (vertebrobasilar Insufficiency.)

Düring Which The disturbance of cranial nerve Functionnal nucleus generate your optokinetic nystagmus.

Yawning or 60 attacks 61 cases observation of a young boy with syndome of Morsier of Kalman, who has never go and is immune to 'the échokinésie Aillant by prosopagnosia.

Case 62 '28 years and I ve always been yawning.

I m not tired, I sleep well ... anyway all is well.

By cons I yawn constantly, and it becomes very Enanta when I m facing an unknown person.

My family, my friends, my colleagues and my superiors know and understand that is beyond my control.

I absolutely can not prevent it.

'Try to shake âchoire but is impossible to restrain myself.

Then explain to my audience that this is not against them and that 'there is nothing personal.

But this force can disrupt some EGOTIATIONS!

Right now I m just ven yawn when I m writing my email.

Is incredible.

My age is 54 years old and saw the exact thing ven!

Where did it come from and how to master? mystery.

If you have a solution, I m all ears.

Anne-Marie Case 63: propriospinal myoclonus and goes ePetition: an observation Case 64: Excessive tumor Aillant érébrale Case 65: go, singing and relaxing the case of Anna.

Case 66: go and syndromes, sleep apnea, where Emilia Thank you for contributing to enrich the record clinical observations by sending your case to DETAILED Write to Dr Walusinski ..

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YES YES YES, and it's been happening since I started college. I've notice it comes when I'm sleeping AND when I"m awake. Doing the times I'm awake, it's usually during long road trips or plane trips and in a lecture when I'm not paying any attention. They're very intense, like someone turn on a switch and all of my senses are heighten. I'm 34, my doctor feels its the vibration of the plane or car but it doesn't explain the times when I'm just sitting in a chair reading or listening to a lecture or song. My doctor also suggested that I may have increase male hormones that explains my increase libido. I've done my on online search of the matter and you problem have better luck under the title of "extragenital orgasm" instead using the word spontaneous the studies seem to interchange the term. This one paper even suggested that it can occur during breast feeding, while a hairdresser shampoo your hair, even looking at a scenic picture: www.psychosomaticmedicine.org/cgi/reprint/16/3/240.pdf
I've also found that certain medications can cause spontaneous orgasms as a "side effect" and also seizures of the temporal lobe : emedicine.medscape.com/article/1186872-overview

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Spontaneous orgasm from eating cake?!?

i don't know why but, after eating cake and a cup cake i went up stairs about to go on the computer and sit then i had this weird orgasm but, not in my mouth and my clothes were even on i wasn't even touching down there and it just happened. what does this mean? >////x////<

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Orgasms can be spontaneous, seeming to occur with no direct stimulation. Some non-sexual activity may result in a spontaneous orgasm. The best example of such activity is a release of tension that unintentionally involves slight genital stimulation, like rubbing of the seat of the bicycle against genitals during riding, exercising, when pelvic muscles are tightened. It was also discovered that some anti-depressant drugs may provoke spontaneous climax as a side effect.

Perhaps it was just the act of sitting down and your clothes rubbing 'down there' rather than anything to do with the cake.

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This is a continuation of Sunset Angel

Rebecca sat at the vanity, hair brush in hand. She still wore the blue dress she'd been married in earlier that day. Long slender fingers closed around her own. "Let me" Buck whispered. Rebecca had already removed the flowers Rachel and Lou had woven into her hair and had been about to brush it out. Buck ran his fingers through her hair followed by the brush. She loved the feel of him brushing her hair. Every touch made her want him more.

He loved the feel of her hair; the soft golden red curls begged him to touch them. He lowered his face to her head and breathed in her scent as her hair filtered through his fingers. He was on fire but he wanted this night to be special. They had stayed apart the last few days and needed a release. He let his fingers wander to her cheek and turned her face to his. "I love you" he breathed as he leaned into kiss her lips.

"I love you, too" Rebecca spoke into his lips as he broke the kiss away after only a gentle touch. "Buck?" She reached for him but he'd stood up and was working the buttons on the back of her dress. Every time his fingers touched skin she could feel the heat they left on her body. If he didn't take her soon she would explode from his touch alone.

Buck guided her to her feet and finished the buttons with a line of kisses down her back. The dress fell to the floor at her feet followed by her undergarments. She was totally naked while Buck was still dressed and standing behind her. His arms circled around her and pulled her to him. Their image, reflected in the mirror, was one they would never forget. Rebecca could feel his arousal pressing into her backside. His hands cupped her breasts and his mouth found her neck. One of her hands covered his while her other caressed his cheek. Her nipples were so sensitive that each little touch sent shivers up her spine. She almost cried out when one of his hands left her breast and moved down her body. She parted her legs as his hand made its intention clear. He began rubbing her with his thumb while his fingers parted her lower lips.

Rebecca looked into the mirror. She could see his fingers enter her; she could feel them wiggling inside of her. He was holding her up now, her own legs too weak to hold her. "Buck" She breathlessly whispered his name. His lips were caressing her shoulders but his eyes were watching their image in the mirror. It was too much she leaned into him and exploded with her first climax of the night. "Oh My God, Buck!" Her own hands moved to find his body.

He finally spun her around in his arms and captured her face with one hand; the other pushed her waist against him. He was rock hard and still fully clothed. As his lips found hers, her hands began working the buttons of his shirt. They drifted toward the bed as his shirt was pulled from his pants. Rebecca was planning a little fun of her own. Her lips and tongue worked their way from his mouth to his ear and that little spot just behind and below it. He shivered as she, ever so lightly, flicked her tongue down his neck and chest to his nipples. She sucked and nipped playfully at them while her hands continued to undress him; his shirt fell to the floor. His hands sought her breasts and cheeks. He tried to move her hands to his throbbing erection but she was enjoying inflicting this sweet torture.

He groaned when Rebecca unfastened the first button of his pants. With painstaking slowness she undid all the buttons and pushed the pants down over his hips. Before he could step out of the restrictive garments he felt himself being pushed on to the bed. She dropped to her knees in front of him and pushed his knees apart. Her kisses began on his thighs and much to his dismay didn't touch his sack but jumped to the other thigh. "Rebecca, Please…" He reached for her head but she captured his hands and held them to his sides. Her kisses returned to the middle and finally he felt her tongue touch him. He lifted his head and looked down. He watched her as she began to work from his ass forward. He'd never seen himself this big before. His head was a deep purple and flared with every flick of her tongue. Her tongue was hot against the sensitive skin behind his sack. She reached his sack and sucked first one ball then the other into her mouth. She smiled up at him; her eyes sparkling with a green fire. He was close and she knew it. She moved one of her hands and applied a little pressure to the base of his erection. Her tongue continued its assault on his blood engorged member, little flicks followed by little nips. His hips were moving on their own. Finally she reached the tip and lightly sucked the head into her mouth. Her tongue slipped a tiny bit into his hole as her teeth scraped lightly across the top of his head. He wanted to come but the pressure of her fingers wouldn't let him. She continued to lick and suck a moment or two longer but to Buck it felt like an eternity. Suddenly she moved her fingers and swallowed him right to the base.

"Aaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh" his whole body reacted at once. He gripped the sheets, arched his back and threw his head back into the mattress as his body pumped wave after wave of his seed into his wife's mouth. She swallowed every drop and once he'd settled down a bit, she began to move her mouth up and down his still rock hard shaft. His hands tried to stop her movements but she pushed them away; every nerve in his body was on fire. He was amazed to find that he was close to coming again. This time she let his body control her movements and as her tongue swirled around the purple head he came again. He was breathing hard and covered in sweat. Twice, she'd made him come twice in less than five minutes and he still had his boots on!

Rebecca stood and smiled down at Buck, her eyes were a bright green. "Hey, cowboy, if I didn't know any better I'd think you enjoyed that!" She laughed as he tried to grab her but she was standing on his pants and he was still trapped. He was also still hard; he'd only softened a little.

In one swift movement he launched himself at her, managing to capture her and they both fell back onto the bed. He rolled on top of her and found her lips. His tongue met hers as he maneuvered his way out of his pants and boots. He could taste himself in her mouth as his tongue danced with hers. Their fingers entwined each other's hair and their hands explored each other's bodies. She was wet and ready for him. He needed to be inside her. His body was aching for the feel of her engulfing his body within her inner folds.

His kisses trailed down her neck and his lips encircled her nipple. His hand cupped her other breast and teased the nipple into erectness. Her hands cupped his lower cheeks and pulled him closer to her. He moved his hand lower and parted her lips. His fingers found their way inside and began their internal dance while his thumb worked its magic on her sensitive little nub. His tongue continued its assault on her nipples while her hands explored his cheeks and ran up and down the base of his spine. Rebecca came as one of his fingers found a second hole to explore.

"Buck, don't hurt me…" She managed to say.

"Hmmm, I didn't mean to if I did." He mumbled into her breast. He looked up at her face and saw only desire not pain. He moved to take her lips with his as her hands found his shaft.

He rolled onto his back and watched as she mounted him. He groaned as his shaft was swallowed by her body. He reached up and massaged her breasts as she began to rock her hips back and forth. She was breathing hard and rocking faster and faster. He was close himself but he wanted her to come first. He began thrusting hard into her and matching her stroke for stroke. Her breathing was coming in short gasps and she was moaning his name. He soon felt her inner muscles contract around him as she fell forward on to Buck's chest.

He let her rest a few moments before he rolled her over onto her back; still inside of her. He was afraid too much movement on his part would cause him to come and he didn't want to yet. Buck looked down into his wife's face. Her eyes were glowing with desire and love, her hair was stuck to her face from sweat and her lips were swollen from his kisses. He thought she'd never looked more beautiful.

Rebecca opened her eyes and gazed into the face of her husband. His hair fell forward framing his face and his eyes were dark with desire. His lips were pink and swollen from her kisses; she traced them with her finger. He was still inside her and her whole body was responding to his touch. He moved ever so slowly, easing part way out of her then easily gliding back in. He continued this slow gentle movement a few moments more then pulled all the way out.

"Buck…" she breathed huskily, "don't stop."

"What? Don't stop this?" he kissed her with so much passion she thought she'd climax just from the kiss. "Or this?" He trailed kisses down to first one breast then the other nipping and sucking the nipples as he reached and cupped the breast with his hand. "Or maybe this?" he reached down and positioned his shaft, the head just touching her opening.

"All of it Buck. Don't stop, I want it all." She was almost sobbing with desire. She tried to push her hips forward so he'd slip into her. He matched her movements and kept the head just touching her.

"You want this?" He looked at her and wiggled his body just enough so she could feel him move against her.

"Please Buck" she was begging him.

With one great thrust he pushed deeper into her than he'd ever been. She came instantly with an intensity that surprised them both. He couldn't move, her inner walls grabbed his shaft and held it as tight as a hand would. Once her body released his, he began to thrust with long hard strokes; coming all the way out and then back in as deep as he could. His hips began moving on their own and he knew he couldn't hold out much longer. Her tunnel began to tighten again and Buck pulled out for one final dive. He thrust forward and exploded. He growled, he panted, he fell down beside his wife on the bed and drew her close.

"I love you Rebecca, heart, mind, body and spirit." He spoke into her neck as he nuzzled her neck, totally spent.

"I love you Buck, with all my heart, mind, body and soul." She kissed his forehead and snuggled down beside him.

Soft snores were heard from the couple moments later.

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Here it is. I'm dead, and this is my last post to my blog. In advance, I asked that once my body finally shut down from the punishments of my cancer, then my family and friends publish this prepared message I wrote—the first part of the process of turning this from an active website to an archive.

If you knew me at all in real life, you probably heard the news already from another source, but however you found out, consider this a confirmation: I was born on June 30, 1969 in Vancouver, Canada, and I died in Burnaby on May 3, 2011, age 41, of complications from stage 4 metastatic colorectal cancer. We all knew this was coming.

That includes my family and friends, and my parents Hilkka and Juergen Karl. My daughters Lauren, age 11, and Marina, who's 13, have known as much as we could tell them since I first found I had cancer. It's become part of their lives, alas.

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Airdrie

Of course it includes my wife Airdrie (née Hislop). Both born in Metro Vancouver, we graduated from different high schools in 1986 and studied Biology at UBC, where we met in '88. At a summer job working as park naturalists that year, I flipped the canoe Air and I were paddling and we had to push it to shore.

We shared some classes, then lost touch. But a few years later, in 1994, I was still working on campus. Airdrie spotted my name and wrote me a letter—yes! paper!—and eventually (I was trying to be a full-time musician, so chaos was about) I wrote her back. From such seeds a garden blooms: it was March '94, and by August '95 we were married. I have never had second thoughts, because we have always been good together, through worse and bad and good and great.

However, I didn't think our time together would be so short: 23 years from our first meeting (at Kanaka Creek Regional Park, I'm pretty sure) until I died? Not enough. Not nearly enough.

What was at the end

I haven't gone to a better place, or a worse one. I haven't gone anyplace, because Derek doesn't exist anymore. As soon as my body stopped functioning, and the neurons in my brain ceased firing, I made a remarkable transformation: from a living organism to a corpse, like a flower or a mouse that didn't make it through a particularly frosty night. The evidence is clear that once I died, it was over.

So I was unafraid of death—of the moment itself—and of what came afterwards, which was (and is) nothing. As I did all along, I remained somewhat afraid of the process of dying, of increasing weakness and fatigue, of pain, of becoming less and less of myself as I got there. I was lucky that my mental faculties were mostly unaffected over the months and years before the end, and there was no sign of cancer in my brain—as far as I or anyone else knew.

As a kid, when I first learned enough subtraction, I figured out how old I would be in the momentous year 2000. The answer was 31, which seemed pretty old. Indeed, by the time I was 31 I was married and had two daughters, and I was working as a technical writer and web guy in the computer industry. Pretty grown up, I guess.

Yet there was much more to come. I had yet to start this blog, which recently turned 10 years old. I wasn't yet back playing drums with my band, nor was I a podcaster (since there was no podcasting, nor an iPod for that matter). In techie land, Google was fresh and new, Apple remained "beleaguered," Microsoft was large and in charge, and Facebook and Twitter were several years from existing at all. The Mars rovers Spirit and Opportunity were three years away from launch, while the Cassini-Huygens probe was not quite half-way to Saturn. The human genome hadn't quite been mapped yet.

The World Trade Center towers still stood in New York City. Jean Chrétien remained Prime Minister of Canada, Bill Clinton President of the U.S.A., and Tony Blair Prime Minister of the U.K.—while Saddam Hussein, Hosni Mubarak, Kim Jong-Il, Ben Ali, and Moammar Qaddafi held power in Iraq, Egypt, North Korea, Tunisia, and Libya.

In my family in 2000, my cousin wouldn't have a baby for another four years. My other cousin was early in her relationship with the man who is now her husband. Sonia, with whom my mother had been lifelong friends (ever since they were both nine), was still alive. So was my Oma, my father's mom, who was then 90 years old. Neither my wife nor I had ever needed long-term hospitalization—not yet. Neither of our children was out of diapers, let alone taking photographs, writing stories, riding bikes and horses, posting on Facebook, or outgrowing her mother's shoe size. We didn't have a dog.

And I didn't have cancer. I had no idea I would get it, certainly not in the next decade, or that it would kill me.

Missing out

Why do I mention all this stuff? Because I've come to realize that, at any time, I can lament what I will never know, yet still not regret what got me where I am. I could have died in 2000 (at an "old" 31) and been happy with my life: my amazing wife, my great kids, a fun job, and hobbies I enjoyed. But I would have missed out on a lot of things.

And many things will now happen without me. As I wrote this, I hardly knew what most of them could even be. What will the world be like as soon as 2021, or as late as 2060, when I would have been 91, the age my Oma reached? What new will we know? How will countries and people have changed? How will we communicate and move around? Whom will we admire, or despise?

What will my wife Air be doing? My daughters Marina and Lolo? What will they have studied, how will they spend their time and earn a living? Will my kids have children of their own? Grandchildren? Will there be parts of their lives I'd find hard to comprehend right now?

What to know, now that I'm dead

There can't be answers today. While I was still alive writing this, I was sad to know I'll miss these things—not because I won't be able to witness them, but because Air, Marina, and Lauren won't have me there to support their efforts.

It turns out that no one can imagine what's really coming in our lives. We can plan, and do what we enjoy, but we can't expect our plans to work out. Some of them might, while most probably won't. Inventions and ideas will appear, and events will occur, that we could never foresee. That's neither bad nor good, but it is real.

I think and hope that's what my daughters can take from my disease and death. And that my wonderful, amazing wife Airdrie can see too. Not that they could die any day, but that they should pursue what they enjoy, and what stimulates their minds, as much as possible—so they can be ready for opportunities, as well as not disappointed when things go sideways, as they inevitably do.

I've also been lucky. I've never had to wonder where my next meal will come from. I've never feared that a foreign army will come in the night with machetes or machine guns to kill or injure my family. I've never had to run for my life (something I could never do now anyway). Sadly, these are things some people have to do every day right now.

A wondrous place

The world, indeed the whole universe, is a beautiful, astonishing, wondrous place. There is always more to find out. I don't look back and regret anything, and I hope my family can find a way to do the same.

What is true is that I loved them. Lauren and Marina, as you mature and become yourselves over the years, know that I loved you and did my best to be a good father.

Airdrie, you were my best friend and my closest connection. I don't know what we'd have been like without each other, but I think the world would be a poorer place. I loved you deeply, I loved you, I loved you, I loved you.

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